tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6977534289564390762024-03-18T22:20:23.723-05:00Jerri L. KelleyJerri Kelleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13809633414309521687noreply@blogger.comBlogger1064125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-42147502110104539012018-07-04T23:02:00.002-05:002018-07-04T23:02:56.011-05:00Because Not Everyone Loves Big Booms
Tonight I am sitting on the floor in my bedroom
with a small fan on for noise. My dogs sit huddled against either side of me.
Outside, fireworks fill the sky. In my bedroom, fear fills my dogs’ minds. One
shakes uncontrollably, and the other’s face is crinkled with anxiety, her skin
jumpy to even my touch. The loud booming terrifies them. Their brains do not
comprehend the house-shaking explosions. They only understand the fear it
causes.<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
It isn’t just my dogs. Last year we found three
dogs around our backyard the morning of July 5<sup>th</sup>. Three dogs. Three
different owners. All the dogs ran away because they were trying to escape the
sounds that terrified them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Facebook
reeled with pleas for helping folks find missing dogs, and it ran post after post
announcing a dog found here or there. I don’t think the owners are bad owners.
I think they just don’t realize how much terrifying the flash and boom of
fireworks can be. Unfortunately, some of those pets will never be found, and it
isn’t because they are badly behaved or wild pets. It’s because they run so far
to escape their torment, they cannot find their way home.<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
As I sit here and look at my dogs wrapped in a
fear they can neither escape or even understand, I think of so many veterans
who are affected the same way. Unlike my dogs, they understand fireworks. They
know how they work, understand the reason, know to expect them. It doesn’t
matter. The screaming of bottle rockets and popping of firecrackers hit their
nervous system like rockets big enough to blow up a tank and machine gun fire.
And those explosions that can rock the house rock their psyche like the ones
that rocked the ground when they were in combat. <o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
I sit here looking at the clock wondering how much
longer the noise will go on and how long it will take before my dogs are able
to recover from their fear response, and I am wondering if there are veterans
wondering the same thing. <o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
I’m wondering how many veterans are trying to
drink away the torment. I am wondering how many anti-anxiety meds it takes to
get through tonight. I am wondering how many are doing what I am doing, filling
the air with exaggerated noise that is innocuous, sound they can control, just
to drown out the noise they can’t. I wonder how many are running away or trying
to simply escape the torment and end up running so far they cannot find their
way home and are lost forever. <o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
Tonight my heart is sick, and I am praying.<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
I will be honest. I’m praying for the terrified
pets and their owners, and I am praying for the runaways to be found. <o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
I am also praying for the veterans and those who
love them. I am praying for their peace because God knows they’ve earned the
right to have peace, and I am praying for those running, that they be found or
find their way home. And I am praying for those who, for a war full of reasons,
don’t find their way back.<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
If you are a veteran, I want to thank you for
service that allows us this freedom we celebrate, and I pray for you and our
brothers and sisters who are still fighting wars no one can see. May God bless
you with the peace you so greatly deserve.<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
With deep gratitude and sincere prayers, <o:p></o:p><br />
Jerri<o:p></o:p><br />
<br />
@2018 Jerri Kelley<br />
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Jerri Kelleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13809633414309521687noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-14196353304750522552018-03-30T09:42:00.000-05:002018-03-30T09:42:54.474-05:00I am Private Ryan--The Life of Being Sacrificed For
This morning I was up early and watched the sunrise, hoping
for some life-altering epiphany to explode into me as the sun exploded onto the
landscape. But the sun didn’t explode onto the scene, and an epiphany didn’t
explode in me. Instead, the sun slipped in quietly, like always, and I sat
quietly and watched it, like always, and virtually every other day of the year
that would have been fine, but not today.<o:p></o:p><br />
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Today is Good Friday. It is the beginning of Passover. It is
the day when the Lamb of God was sacrificed to cover the sin debt by every
person in all history of time. This is a big day! There should be some kind of
resounding…something.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>I know several churches that are having “Reflection Services”
today, services to be still, ponder our guilt, ponder our inability to be good
enough, ponder how woefully unworthy we are so we can be crazy stunned by how
wondrously loving God is and how unfathomable the gift of His Son is. And
despite my best efforts, I can’t go there.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>It isn’t that I don’t understand my inability to save
myself. I live that reality every single day. It isn’t that I don’t believe in
the cross or the empty tomb. I also live that reality every single day. It is
the only thing that helps me overcome the reality of myself.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>This morning I sat and watched the sun and prayed for a
moment of… I wanted an emotional moment of connecting with God, of having my
life-altered, of being shattered maybe, of…<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>I wrote the following in my journal:<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I
am trying to have an experience. Isn’t it supposed to be some kind of
life-altering day? That is what I am trying to have. A life-altering encounter.
I am trying to have an emotional moment with God.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
<br />
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<o:p> </o:p>I mean, isn’t that the point of reflection on Good Friday?
To have this heartbreaking, reality moment with God where I realize how small I
am and how big He is and how desperate I am and how benevolent He is?<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>But that isn’t what I feel. At all.<o:p></o:p></div>
<br />
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<o:p> </o:p>I don’t feel desperate or crushed or crappy. <o:p></o:p></div>
<br />
I feel so wildly loved.<o:p></o:p><br />
So insanely important.<o:p></o:p><br />
So…Private Ryan.<o:p></o:p><br />
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In the movie <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Saving
Private Ryan</i>, a clerk writing letters to the family of deceased soldiers
realizes that three brothers have died and a fourth is also in the war. A
decision is made to save Private Ryan and make sure he is returned home safely.
Captain Miller and seven men are sent to find Ryan. Lives are sacrificed in the
process, and when Ryan is saved from the battle taking place where he is,
Captain Miller says simply, “Earn this.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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How in the world could a man earn lives lost to save him?<o:p></o:p></div>
How in the world could I ever earn a Life sacrificed for me?<o:p></o:p><br />
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Simple answer: It isn’t possible…and yet, it is.<o:p></o:p></div>
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But I don’t “earn” it by living in the past, by beating
myself up over what I used to be, or even what I still struggle with now. <o:p></o:p></div>
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From my journal:<o:p></o:p></div>
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I really want to honor God for His
acts, for His sacrifice I cannot even begin to fathom, and I want to honor
Jesus for His sacrifice, but I do not see how grieving and returning to a pit
of self-hatred and wallowing in misery honors Him at all. Isn’t that what He
died to deliver me from?<o:p></o:p></div>
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I keep thinking of <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Saving Private Ryan</i> when Captain Miller says, “Earn this.” Private
Ryan kneels before that cross in that cemetery and asks if he has been enough.
He has lived a life meant to honor the sacrifices made for him.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Isn’t that how I need to live?</div>
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Isn’t that how I should think?<o:p></o:p></div>
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Shouldn’t my life be lived to honor the
One who sacrificed Himself for me?</div>
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Shouldn’t it be about living bigger,</div>
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living more
intentionally,</div>
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living more
authentically,</div>
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living more loved,</div>
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living more aware of
my value?<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>Isn’t the point of Christ’s death and resurrection to
deliver me from the hell I find myself in so I can live a life that honors the
God who gave the gift?<o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>Isn’t the point of Christ on the cross summed up in John
3:16: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">For GOD so LOVED the world that He
gave His only begotten Son, so that whoever believes in Him should not die but
have everlasting life?<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<o:p> </o:p><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Is it possible to
focus on the crucifixion of Christ without looking at how I should then live?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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<o:p> </o:p>Can I earn what was given for me?<o:p></o:p></div>
<br />
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No. Never.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">But I can live the
love back to Him that He poured out for me. I honor Him by loving Him and living
in such a way as to make His sacrifice worth it.<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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That is the life of being sacrificed for.<o:p></o:p></div>
That is the life He bought by sacrificing Himself to save
me.<o:p></o:p><br />
That is the life of a Private Ryan.<o:p></o:p><br />
Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-1788045594488463172018-03-27T22:33:00.000-05:002018-03-27T22:33:12.427-05:00The Awesome Beauty of a Small God<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="d4j9f-0-0"><span data-text="true">I know I say this often, but God leaves me in utter awe, not at the fact He made the cosmos or makes the sun rise every morning or controls huge thunderstorms, although those rock, too. What leaves me most in awe is the tender way He loves me. There are things He does for me that are so very special, that no one else knows I like. There are days when I can't stop thinking about my parents, and someone will just casually mention them in the sweetest way. There are days when all the changes seem so heavy, and He will send someone to take a bit of the load by praying with me. There are days when the purple irises up the road are in glorious bloom and I only saw them because something made me go a direction I normally don't. Yes. He is awesome in power and immensity and greatness. He is awesome in how intimate He is with my smallness and how my smallness is so important to Him. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="11slu-0-0"><span data-text="true">I hope you feel the awesome wonder of how small He can be for you, too.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9t852-0-0"><span data-text="true">Night,</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-75913455482099242972018-03-27T11:27:00.000-05:002018-03-27T11:27:01.322-05:00Because Sometimes Some of Us Wonder if We are Too Much Ourselves and Not Enough Something Else<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="e2vl2-0-0"><span data-text="true">I've mentioned umpteen times I have ADD, and honestly, I think it is one of the best things ever. However, I also find it almost ravenous in its need to be fed. Some of you creatives know what I mean. For a few years now, I've been able to feed it okay. Amazing how just mentally/emotionally/physically getting to a healthy place really sucks down the energy, but it has been good. About a year ago those demands really started to diminish because, thank the Lord, I am at a great place, but then, the boredom started to creep in. I learned that bordeom is not always bad when the Lord is using that down time to let you rejuvenate and replenish your energy. You actually need some down time just to get filled up after all the pour out, so the times has been good, but in the last month or two, the boredom has become more and more draining, not energizing, so I've been looking at things I "would do if I could". Nothing really overwhelming, so I started praying for God to open doors no man could close and close doors no man could open, and I have to tell you, I would have never even knocked on a few of the doors that have appeared. However, they seem to fit. In fact, I am seeing how a lot of the stuff I've learned in my life recreated period fits perfectly into those doors. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="dnes4-0-0"><span data-text="true">Now, between us, I am uber excited about these doors and the potential they hold. I am also pretty nervous. In fact, yesterday was a day when I had to fight through flat out fear because...well, what if these people I want to work with don't like me? I mean, seriously. What if...they don't like me? </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="avvtm-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="dmdh-0-0"><span data-text="true">What if I am not exactly what they are looking for?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="888n8-0-0"><span data-text="true">What if I'm too much me and not enough of their ideal?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="b3946-0-0"><span data-text="true">I told my friends Mitzi and Heather it is like dating and really like someone and wondering what I need to modify to be more appealing. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="e00nt-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="a2htn-0-0"><span data-text="true">Except, I'm not going to modify anything.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="cmv5-0-0"><span data-text="true">Because <strong><span style="font-size: large;">the fact is, I really like me, and if I modify myself, then I'm going to change something I like, and no man...no job...no door is worth that.</span></strong></span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2k10-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="4g2sf-0-0"><span data-text="true">But more than that, why would the God who calls me fearfully and wonderfully made put me in a place where He knows I have to modify His creation to fit? Could it be that if those people who determine how open the doors are will either like me as I am or not be the people God wants me to work with?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bkj7a-0-0"><span data-text="true">Now, understand, I'm not talking about arrogant or proud refusal to adjust. We are called to humble ourselves, but there is a difference between humbling ourselves and lying about who we are so someone digs us.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6jjcd-0-0"><span data-text="true">This morning I woke up just as unsure about what will happen witt those doors as I was yesterday, but I am more sure of this: </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="j9lq-0-0"><span data-text="true"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">The God who made me has made the place for me.</span></strong></span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="56i03-0-0"><span data-text="true"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">The image of Him that lives in me is necessary.</span></strong></span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a07n6-0-0"><span data-text="true"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">He will open the door where HE is allowed to be all He is in me.</span></strong></span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="cgao-0-0"><span data-text="true">That is the place of peace because that is the place I put my faith in the Lord's character and ability to work everything out for my good and His glory.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a1bk3-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="a1bk3-0-0"><span data-text="true">Praying for you to stand in who you are in Him, </span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="b267h-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="b267h-0-0"><span data-text="true">for you to love the person HE made you to me, </span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="d2r7i" data-offset-key="dgbe7-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="dgbe7-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="dgbe7-0-0"><span data-text="true">for you to walk boldly through open doors--even the suprise ones, </span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="d2r7i" data-offset-key="hafv-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="hafv-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="hafv-0-0"><span data-text="true">for you to know you are crazy loved.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="f29l8-0-0"><span data-text="true">Love and blessings,</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4va1n-0-0"><span data-text="true">Jerri</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="evc03-0-0"><span data-text="true">www.jerrikelley.com</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-85963602380009955682018-03-12T08:50:00.000-05:002018-03-12T08:50:10.624-05:00A Prayer for Those Grieving<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="9dhma-0-0"><span data-text="true">Father, this morning I know several people who are grieving and feeling the emptiness of loss. I lift them up to you. I ask you to speak comfort to their aching places, and I ask you to give them courage as they walk through this valley. Give them the courage to look beyond the grief to the joy that memories will bring, and I ask that during this grieving you would give them reprieves--reprieves from the pain so they can breathe and think without the fog of hurt and loss feeling like it is sucking the life out of them and a reprieve from the forward march so they can grieve deeply and honestly. I ask that you protect them from thoughtless statements of others that inflict more pain, and I ask you to send kind hands and words to encourage them, to carry them when need be. I ask you to impart hope for a day that doesn't hurt "like this one does".</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="6ejm5-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="6ejm5-0-0"><span data-text="true">And, Father, for those who feel alone because of so much loss, I ask that you would speak as only you can. Be the presence only You can be. Give hope of how you can fill the void because you can. Your word promises that you sit the lonely in families. You take care of orphans, widows, and the lonely because you know it is not good for us to be alone. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="34ire-0-0"><span data-text="true">I pray that each of these people grieving this morning would know with all they are that they are not alone. That you are with them, that they are loved, and you are filling the empty places if they have the courage to heal and love again. And sometimes, Father, that takes a LOT of courage. I ask you to give them that courage too.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="43kr8-0-0"><span data-text="true">Thank you, Father, for the precious lives that have lived and poured into each of these who are grieving. Thank you for the gift these loved ones have been. THank you for how they have made each of these people better, enriched their lives, continue to impact the world through their influence. Thank you for these beautiful treasures that are being celebrated evening among, and with, the tears. You give lavish gifts, and these who are being mourned are incredibly lavish gifts. Thank you.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="3qb4a-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="3qb4a-0-0"><span data-text="true">Father, thank you for hearing my prayer. Thank you for answering in your love and mercy. Thank you for being a kind, gentle, and concerned God. I praise you for your trustyworthiness and your tenderness. You are beautiful, and I thank you for who you are.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="vnji-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="vnji-0-0"><span data-text="true">With faith for answers to each of these petitions and absolute certainty of your love and concern, I pray in Jesus' name. Amen</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="mps5-0-0"><span data-text="true">--Jerri L. Kelley--</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="7en9u-0-0"><span data-text="true">www.jerrikelley.com</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-35866038836842585192018-03-01T09:30:00.000-06:002018-03-01T09:30:10.580-06:00Enough<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="33oq4-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="33oq4-0-0"><span data-text="true">Thursday morning coming in wet and soggy with low-lying clouds and the reality that we'll want all this water in July and August but right now....Did I mention it is a LOT of water?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fi8qd-0-0"><span data-text="true">But as I sit here looking out the window at the small lake formerly known as my backyard, I am fascinated. I don't see water. I see sky. I see the reflection of things higher than. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8r8s-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="8r8s-0-0"><span data-text="true">Higher than my thoughts.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4ovp1-0-0"><span data-text="true">Higher than my ways.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="71ctv-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="71ctv-0-0"><span data-text="true">Higher than I can dream or imagine.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="9gqqs-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="9gqqs-0-0"><span data-text="true">Higher than where I am looking obviously.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="cv7c9-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="cv7c9-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="cv7c9-0-0"><span data-text="true">Sometimes I get so caught up at looking down at what I think is too much or not necessary or just flat destructive, I need God to use the lower to reflect what is above me. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="49tvu-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="49tvu-0-0"><span data-text="true">And you know what I see in those reflected clouds? Hope.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="42opn-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="42opn-0-0"><span data-text="true">I see a sky that will break forth sunshine.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="18i45-0-0"><span data-text="true">I see light places that are not as heavy as others.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="977rh-0-0"><span data-text="true">I see heaven. </span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="4ki3l-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="4ki3l-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="4ki3l-0-0"><span data-text="true">When I look up, I see beyond the skies to haven beyond and the God who reigns there...who reigns here...even in the hard rains and all the water.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="c08da-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="4ro85-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="4ro85-0-0"><span data-text="true">This morning I am asking Him simply:</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="4eb4c-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="4eb4c-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="4eb4c-0-0"><span data-text="true">What do you want me to see?</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="c3e0j-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="c3e0j-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="c3e0j-0-0"><span data-text="true">In the reflection, in the heavens beyond, in the water that covers so much of the beneath...what do you want me to see?</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="bnhqp-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="bnhqp-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="bnhqp-0-0"><span data-text="true">I know you are in all of it. Open my eyes to see you. To know you. Help me look beyond what I'm tired of and have had enough of so I can see how you are showing me...once again...even more beautifully...you are enough.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="2rupj-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="2rupj-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="aelbb-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="aelbb-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="aelbb-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="aelbb-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="aelbb-0-0"><span data-text="true">And isn't that what He wants us to know? That in everything, HE is enough,</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="fm9c2-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="fm9c2-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="fm9c2-0-0"><span data-text="true">Isn't that what hard does? Reflect the truth that makes us look up so we see and know He is enough.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="38nhd-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="38nhd-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="38nhd-0-0"><span data-text="true">Isn't that the crux of our faith? He is enough.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="3shot-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="3shot-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="3shot-0-0"><span data-text="true">Especially when we have hit the wall and too much is screaming how we are not enough too handle it all, He is enough.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="comta-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="11cvp" data-offset-key="5cpub-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="5cpub-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="5cpub-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="5cpub-0-0"><span data-text="true">I'm praying for you this morning, that even in whatever over-saturated with hard you are facing or are in, that you can find rest in the Truth that HE is enough.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8kuca-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="8kuca-0-0"><span data-text="true">God's blessings,</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-32701548958917786842018-02-28T12:00:00.000-06:002018-02-28T12:00:01.608-06:00Had Your Fill of a Season? Perhaps God is Using the Season to Fill You<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="1jol0-0-0"><span data-text="true">Wednesday in North Texas, and it is raining...more. But you know what? The lakes are filling up. The reservoirs are filling up, and when the heat hits, the water will be there to sustain us.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="aok2u-0-0"><span data-text="true">Kind of like life, isn't it? We get tired of the season we are in. We get tired of the "more" of something, and we are ready to move on, and yet, it lingers. It is really easy to grumbly during those times and miss the blessing, but here is the Truth.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="b9gd3-0-0"><span data-text="true">If something lingers, it's because God has a lasting purpose for it, and it may just be that its purrpose is to help you last.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2duha-0-0"><span data-text="true">See, if we lean into God during the times of "more than what we wanted", then we get more of what we need when there isn't enough of us to make it through the hard.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2pd21-0-0"><span data-text="true">If we lean into God when we are tired of what is going on, then we have more of God when we are just flat tired.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-67935381955525204902018-02-22T23:03:00.002-06:002018-02-22T23:03:53.012-06:00If You are Grieving, I Understand<div data-block="true" data-editor="4vm84" data-offset-key="9eksm-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="9eksm-0-0"><span data-text="true">It has been a long time since I wrote about grief. I think that is because I have finally moved beyond the feeling that my heart has been ripped out of my chest and breathing feels excruciating, and frankly, I don't want to remember that. I don't want to remember what it felt like to think of listening to my mom gurgling in her last breaths before she died from lung cancer or seeing my husband's body on a table in the ER as I tried to figure out how I was going to tell my kids or his parents that he had died. I don't want to remember looking at the empty chairs at my table as we tried to have Christmas dinner for my brother, kids, and myself when all I could see is where my husband, mom, dad, and stepdad weren't. I don't want to remember the times I picked up the phone to call Mom to ask a question or times I started to call Rob because something had happened only he would understand the impact of. And I really don't want to remember the nights where I woke up and could swear I saw his silhouette in the darkness but knew if I reached over, he wouldn't be there, so I lay there, letting myself believe a lie because it was less heartcrushing than the truth.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8ilt6-0-0"><span data-text="true">I don't want to remember the heartcrushing pain of grief or loss or emptiness. I don't want to remember how little things can slam you like a freight train and suck the air right out of your lungs.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a9h83-0-0"><span data-text="true">I also remember what it was like when someone made some thoughtless, packaged, "get back to normal so I can feel better around you" answer. I remember the pain that inflicted, too.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="at5be-0-0"><span data-text="true">"God needed another angel", which a crazy number of my friends who have lost babies and children have heard. Seriously? What kind of person says something like that?! </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2i0u0-0-0"><span data-text="true">"You shouldnt' be sad for that person. They are in a better place. You should be happy." I'll be honest. My first thought is always, "Let me put a bullet in your loved one's brain, and THEN you say that." This who statement and its derivatives infuriate me. They may be in a better place, but there is someone who loved them HERE, missing them, wishing they could share all kinds of things with them but can't. That is reason ot be sad, and that is not selfish.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6nc6d-0-0"><span data-text="true">"Well, at least you never held your baby." When a woman who has miscarried tells me someone has said this, my heart breaks for that woman. Love is carried in the heart, not the hands. How dare anyone minimalize the hope, joy, and excited that comes with the news of a baby on the way.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bfqog-0-0"><span data-text="true">There are so many others that totally dismiss the broken heartedness of grief. They make the person grieving sound selfish and wrong. They brush over the depth of the loss as though it were nothing because, after all, we know Jesus has this, so who are we to do anything but rejoice that these people are in a better place?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="3sp00-0-0"><span data-text="true">Who we are are the ones left behind with the empty cradles and the empty chairs and the empty beds and the phones with no one to call and the babies on the way that will never know their dad/grandparents/aunts/uncles. We are the ones who thank God for a better place but still have to walk through the pain of adjusting to the void. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="1jpfk-0-0"><span data-text="true">And if you are one of those people learning to walk through the void, I'm sorry. I am so, so sorry. I can tell you honestly, God and time do wonders. I can also tell you honestly it is a hard road, and it takes time to learn to breathe again without it aching more than you think you can bear. And, honestly, there is no magic time limit when you wake up and suddenly you are fine. I have come to realize the idea that it all gets better in a year is only a partial truth, so it's okay to ache on holidays, birthday, anniversaries, and death days as long as you do. Some folks won't get it, but a lot of us do.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2judf-0-0"><span data-text="true">And I'm sorry for the things people say because they either dont' know what to say, don't think about what they are saying, or have never experienced the loss you have. Do yourself a favor and forgive them. You've got enough going on that your heart is trying to carry without adding unforgivness, too. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4btb-0-0"><span data-text="true">If I could, I would sit with you, hand you kleenex when you need them or hold the box when you didn't, listen to the stories you need to tell or sit in silence when you have nothing to say, give you a long hug or just be present. I would let you grieve in earnest and let you feel what you feel and say what you need to say and be honored that you trusted me with that honest part of you.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5jnpr-0-0"><span data-text="true">I am so sorry for your loss. I'm praying for you. Please feel free to comment if I can pray specifically because I will.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="cgbvj-0-0"><span data-text="true">May God comfort you, lead your as you move forward, give you peace in Him, and be your ever present help.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-47335280872768862992018-02-20T09:07:00.003-06:002018-02-20T09:07:42.854-06:00When No One Seems to Care About You at All...<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="afbfo-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="afbfo-0-0"><span data-text="true">You know those mornings that are not quite in sync? The ones where you walk into the kitchen where the sink you left empty last night is stacked with dishes...again, and the dog that is afraid of storms whimpered by your bed all night so your sleep was erratic at best, and this little--or loud--voice keeps asking why in the world you bother because clearly it doesn't make a difference, and nobody cares, and....</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="df32j-0-0"><span data-text="true">Okay, let's stop a second. Let's breathe. Those mornings happen. Those weeks happen. I know, and they can make you want to crawl right back in bed or right into a bottle of something numbing and not come out, but here is the truth that your voice may not have the clarity to tell you:</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9ln6n-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="1q280-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="1q280-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="1q280-0-0"><span data-text="true">A clean sink may not matter to anyone else, </span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="9jcsp-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="9jcsp-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="9jcsp-0-0"><span data-text="true">but YOU matter to others.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9cjig-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="9cjig-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="dbptn-0-0"><span data-text="true">The laundry being folded, the counters being wiped down, the lawn being mowed, the floor being swept....those THINGS may not matter to anyone in your house, </span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="5vtla-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="5vtla-0-0"><span data-text="true">but YOU matter to people in your house and in your life.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="7imee-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="7imee-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="71dtt-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="71dtt-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="71dtt-0-0"><span data-text="true">Don't mistake their apathy for clean as a lack of love for you.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="b31ol-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="b31ol-0-0"><span data-text="true">Don't mistake a messy life as saying YOUR LIFE doesn't matter.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="d23b6-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="d23b6-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="6ao22-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="6ao22-0-0"><span data-text="true">How do you get past the glums? Because we all know emotions are hard battles to fight through. What do you do when no one else seems to care one iota about you?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a4dhl-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="ba4ko-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="ba4ko-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="ba4ko-0-0"><span data-text="true">Care about yourself.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="4mptg-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="4mptg-0-0"><span data-text="true">Do something nice for you.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="91f2a-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="91f2a-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="91f2a-0-0"><span data-text="true">Leave the floor dirty and the dishes in the sink.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="3i6eu-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="3i6eu-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="3i6eu-0-0"><span data-text="true">Go read a book.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="bsu1d-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="bsu1d-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="bsu1d-0-0"><span data-text="true">Take a long bath.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="cr8tg-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="cr8tg-0-0"><span data-text="true">Make some chocolate covered strawberries.</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="6lif8" data-offset-key="3k8o9-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="3k8o9-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="3k8o9-0-0"><span data-text="true">Go to bed early.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8mq1d-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="49irb-0-0"><span data-text="true">The world won't end. Leaving dishes in the sink or footprints on the floor doesn't make you a failure. Sometimes it makes you sane.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6o7rj-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="6o7rj-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="dk3sm-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="dk3sm-0-0"><span data-text="true">So go be sane.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="f6p02-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="9oukk-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="9oukk-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="9oukk-0-0"><span data-text="true">Know you are loved.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="em6r7-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="em6r7-0-0"><span data-text="true">Know you are valuable.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="abjnl-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="abjnl-0-0"><span data-text="true">Know you can love yourself and feel good about it.</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="5e41t-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="5e41t-0-0"><span data-text="true">I'm gonna go have some chocolate milk and read a book now. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fbggs-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="fbggs-0-0"><span data-text="true">Love and prayers!</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5anhc-0-0"><span data-text="true">Jerri</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="f66fn-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="bfjml-0-0"><span data-text="true">--www.jerrikelley.com--</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-17991971420821633452018-02-17T17:42:00.002-06:002018-02-17T17:42:28.432-06:00As a Mom of Kids who Have Grieved Loss, I Grieve for a Kid who is Lost in Grief<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="91fk5-0-0"><span data-text="true">I have been thinking about this young man in Florida who walked into a school and started shooting. His mom died in November, and that is no excuse, but maybe it is because my kids lost their dad when they were 10 and 13, and being a socioogy major, I knew the statistics of kids who endure that. Do you know that young man fit those statistics? He did an extreme action because he was hurting and didn't have a way to fix it, so he hurt others...and himself. </span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="amajg" data-offset-key="8oap4-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="8oap4-0-0"><span data-text="true">I don't know what he was like before his mom died, but I know I was criticized for being a helicopter mom during the 3-4 years after the kids' dad died. I was told I needed to give them room, that their being allowed to crawl in my bed was wrong or "sick", that I was trying to fix them. Some people simply could not see that I was giving them room to grieve honestly with someone who might be able to help them process their grief and pain and anger. Some people couldn't see that night time is hell when you are hurting and being able to reach over and touch the parent that was still alive was stabliity, not sickness. Some people couldn't see thatI knew I couldn't fix them, but I never wanted them to feel abandoned in their pain.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="av6rb-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="alnoe-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="alnoe-0-0"><span data-text="true">And I am left wondering about this kid who may have had issues before his mom died but clearly was lost in grief afterward. Could this have been avoided? Could someone have helped him grieve better? Could someone have stopped these horrifying statistics, not just for him but the friends and families who lost their loved ones?</span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="6qbgd-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="6qbgd-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="6qbgd-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="amajg" data-offset-key="ck8i5-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="ck8i5-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="ck8i5-0-0"><span data-text="true">The truth is, my heart is broken for all of them.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="46inb-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="amajg" data-offset-key="7c03s-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="7c03s-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="7c03s-0-0"><span data-text="true">And I know the whole issue of gun control, but, y'all, I don't see an issue of gun control. I see an issue of a kid who was hurting, who got lost in the darkness and wasn't found. What if he had been found? HOW could he have been found? </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="defti-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="81t11-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="81t11-0-0"><span data-text="true">My kids have never threatened to kill people. Shoot, my son uses a glass and paper to take spiders outside because he won't kill them. But then, they also weren't left to find their way through trauma alone. One absolute truth about trauma is: if you leave trauma unaddressed, it will beget futher trauma. I wonder if this young man in Florida had anyone who tried to step into the trauma with him.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="daeh6-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<span data-offset-key="b4s5p-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
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<span data-offset-key="b4s5p-0-0"><span data-text="true">I don't know. I guess we will never know. </span></span></div>
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="d5ktd-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="d5ktd-0-0"><span data-text="true">
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="amajg" data-offset-key="aiii3-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="aiii3-0-0"><span data-text="true"></span></span> </div>
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="aiii3-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="aiii3-0-0"><span data-text="true">What I know is if we make this an issue about guns, then we only see this young man as a gunman who should have been stopped, not as a hurting person who really need help. As long as we only see the gun, we don't see the people in pain holding them...or find a way to help those people so they never consider picking the gun up in the first place.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="b0us5-0-0"><span data-text="true">Pondering...</span></span></div>
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<div data-block="true" data-editor="amajg" data-offset-key="615c2-0-0">
<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="615c2-0-0">
<span data-offset-key="615c2-0-0"><span data-text="true">Jerri</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-29601250141937831672018-02-16T22:19:00.001-06:002018-02-16T22:19:23.015-06:00Happy in Real Life<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="4a24b-0-0"><span data-text="true">A friend of mine told me today one of my attractive qualities is my happy positivity. That was a very cool compliment. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="97tia-0-0"><span data-text="true">A lot of folks have been kind and commented on the fact that I look so happy. Truthfully, I really am happy. And you know what I've learned the key to happiness is?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2dgo6-0-0"><span data-text="true">For instance, today WonderGirl headed out of town for the weekend with a friend, so WonderBoy and I had dinner at a fave burger place, picked up art supplies at Michaels, and watched part of a movie. Best part? The talking and laughing.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="eeip9-0-0"><span data-text="true">One of my all time favorite songs--Something Beautiful by NeedtoBreathe--came on the radio, so I turned it up and sang along.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="c9hrp-0-0"><span data-text="true">I had a great talk with some men old enough to be my dad at the gym this afternoon. One of them told me about his son who has served in the military since the mid-80s and how proud he is...and how hard it has been to see his son change...in some ways, not for the better. It always leaves me humbled that people share those things with me.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="dpul8-0-0"><span data-text="true">Right now, I am curled up under my favorite fluffy blanket, which doesn't sound like much, but I have a fluffy blanket, and that is not a small thing. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="djodt-0-0"><span data-text="true">And I had a pancake breakfast with my kids before WonderGirl left. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="de94l-0-0"><span data-text="true">It was kind of a plain day, but it was a wonderfully delightful plain day, and as I prepare to go to sleep, there is a smile on my lips, and my heart is full. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="57boa-0-0"><span data-text="true">I hope you had a great day too.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-64910822733976477322018-02-13T09:18:00.002-06:002018-02-13T09:19:02.526-06:00Life with God can be SO Funky!<div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed" id="id_5a83010d565b92712073454">
You know, I used to really struggle with God. I didn't understand Him. I didn't know HIM. I knew theology. I knew hell fire and brim stone. I knew stories about this God waiting to squish me like a bug if I messed up, but that is not the God I've come to know. The God I know now is breathtaking beyond anything I could dream or imagine. He is loving and gentle and kind, and, yes, He disciplines me, but even that is driven by mercy and love. He is no longer some God in heaven I<span class="text_exposed_hide">...</span><span class="text_exposed_show"> serve. He is my Lover, my Husband, my Best Friend, my Encourager, my Comfort, and my Partner in the wildest adventure I could have ever dreamed. Every day with Him is like some wild new thing. </span><br />
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This morning I was thinking about yesterday, and the way the Lord let me pray for people and speak into them and how some people spoke into me. They spoke to exactly what I had been praying about, and I am so thankful for that. Obviously, it is always wonderful to know God adores me enough to speak to stuff I don't tell anyone else about, but it also assured me that I am not missing it. The road did change radically from what I thought we were doing, which is fine because whatever road we take is going to be flipping awesome because, hello, I'm with God. <br />
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But this morning I was pondering all of yesterday, and I started to laugh and just said, "God, life with you is so funky." And, yes, in that instant, I heard music. The attached video is a good visual for my life with God right now, and the choreography is perfect too! I'm watching going, "Really, you want me to do that?!" And about the time I think I have a handle on that, it changes. LOL Life with God really is breathtaking and amazing. I won't lie and tell you it is easy. If you are really living with God, He will stretch you beyond yourself until He is the only one who can make something happen, and the stretching is hard, but WOW! When that "something only God can do" happens...like I said...He is breathtaking.<br />
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-70038877676785580172018-02-12T12:58:00.005-06:002018-02-12T12:58:58.136-06:00A Prophetic Word for Those Seeking Him--"Be Still and Learn Me"This morning when I was praying, I asked the Lord if He had anything to share with y'all, and He said a lot of you are stressing about the next step or the next path or an outcome. You are stressed because you can't see what is coming and you want guaranteed outcomes, guaranteed blessings. Those things don't exist. What you are asking for does not exist. You are asking for what is easy and you want to know it will be easy and not hard and not hurtful, but that is not biblical. Hard things come. Hurtful things come, but in those things HE comes.<br />
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<span data-offset-key="4fhj4-0-0"><span data-text="true">All your peace is in Me.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a5cbt-0-0"><span data-text="true">YOu worry because you do not know Me, because you do not know My heart.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-91341595813845296032018-01-31T21:04:00.003-06:002018-01-31T21:04:52.351-06:00Some Days are Hard. I Know. I Really Do Know.I posted this on my <a href="https://www.facebook.com/JerriLKelley/">FB page</a> tonight. Maybe someone here needs to hear it, too. <3<br />
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<span data-offset-key="e2k40-0-0"><span data-text="true">Beloved, if you know what I'm talking about right now, can I give you a hug here and now? Can I offer you some coffee or tea and a place to just sit? If I could, I would teleport you right to this couch beside me, give you kleenex and coffee, and we would talk long and deep, and you would know you are not alone on this road. But since I can't do that, let me hug you through prayer.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5dilk-0-0"><span data-text="true">Father, I lift up your beloveds who are reading this, or the beloveds that are coming to mind of those reading this, and I ask you to meet them in a powerful way. Tonight is coming down hard, Father, and the rest of the week or maybe next week is coming down harder, and the giants look big, but I know you are bigger, and I ask you to show your beloveds that you are bigger. Meet their every need, Father. Above everything else, show them you love them. They can take a lot of hits if they know they are deeply loved and that every hit hurts your heart for them. Lord, the hardest thing is feeling abandoned and inconsequential. I pray that those who are feeling that right now would know it is a lie, that they are priceless to you, that you are working for them, that your heart is Life for them and in them, for their kids or grandkids. Lord, I am asking you to breathe into them breath of life because they feel like they are dying inside, and speak encouragment to them. Speak peace to them. Give them a word from you that says you really do hear and you really do have them. Speak to their hearts. They need relief, Lord. Give them a reprieve. Give them some laughter. Give them the strength of joy in you. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ep5f5-0-0"><span data-text="true">Thank you for how much you love every single person reading this and how you are fighting for their peace and answers. You are their protector, strong tower, and refuge. Thank you for hearing my prayer on their behalf. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ambb4-0-0"><span data-text="true">Father, give them crowns of beauty for their tattered robes and dancing instead of their mourning.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5jjkv-0-0"><span data-text="true">Thank you. I love you, Lord God. I love you. Amen.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="clsm1-0-0"><span data-text="true">Blessings, love, and prayers to each of you,</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="neo6-0-0"><span data-text="true">www.jerrikelley.com</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-9086265388743129782018-01-29T14:36:00.000-06:002018-01-29T14:36:04.785-06:00The Truth about Monday MoodsI don't think it is so much that it is a Monday mood. I think Monday just fell right into the middle of this mood. <br />
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You know what I find amazing in the shock and awe kind of knock-you-off-kilter kind of way? <br />
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I find it amazing that I can honestly be happy with myself and my life, I can honestly feel excited about so much, I can honestly be proud of my kids and what they are doing...and find myself sitting at the bottom of a lot-is-happening right now avalanche.<br />
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So I've spent the day pushing forward, working through the to do list.<br />
I've taken scripture breaks, sat and read and reread verses that truly do speak to my soul.<br />
I've laid my concerns before the Lord on His altar knowing He hears, knowing He has this, knowing we are in the perfect hands.<br />
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In the midst of the avalanche, the voices start their whispering.<br />
They tell me nothing I do matters.<br />
They tell me my plans are crazy.<br />
They tell me I really haven't made any progress.<br />
They tell me it is pointless to this or that because no one notices or cares.<br />
They say I'm not necessary because other people write on the topics I would write on or inspire people through speeches or blog to thousands of readers. I'm not necessary.<br />
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They lie.<br />
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The voices lie.<br />
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You know how I know?<br />
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Because I know loving people always matters. When people love me, it matters to me. When I love others, it matters to them.<br />
My plans aren't crazy. They are just bigger than I am, which means I pray, wait, listen, move. While I am moving what I can, God is moving what only He can.<br />
There is a lot of healing and change that goes on in the quiet places that allows for life to be seen in the public ones. Foundations take time. Mine has taken seven years, but it is solid.<br />
What I do...is care about people. I pray for people. I ask God for words to speak into lives, to give hope, to offer light in a dark place.<br />
Yes, other people do what I do, but they don't have my story or my way of telling it, and there are people who will hear my story and find truth that helps them hold on when they want to quit or help them heal when they think it is impossible. To those people, I am necessary because my story helps them write a story they may think is only a dream but with God, becomes reality.<br />
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That is the Truth.<br />
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I pray you are able to see the Truth of Monday for you and your life, too.<br />
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Love and prayers,<br />
Jerri<br />
Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-91406179090415199002018-01-24T20:39:00.000-06:002018-01-24T20:39:04.803-06:00Beautiful<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="5okib-0-0"><span data-text="true">I had a really sad conversation with someone last night, and it still bothers me, so I am going to talk about it here because...it is still on my mind, and writing is what I do.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fumpd-0-0"><span data-text="true">She had seen a picture of me and commented on how happy I look, and I told her I am happy. In fact, across the board, this is the best place I have ever been in my life--heart, soul, mind, and body. I told her I reached the place I always wanted to reach. I look in the mirror and see a truly beautiful person, and I love being me. There is honestly no one else I would want to be.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9jn36-0-0"><span data-text="true">She said I look like I've lost weight. Yep, 30 pounds. She asked how, and I told her watching calories, weights, and cardio. Then she said, "Well, no wonder you look happy. Telling yourself you are a muscle building, fat burning machine has got to feel good. Just looking at your mirror everyday and saying that has got to be helping you."</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="e9kj-0-0"><span data-text="true">What?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="be993-0-0"><span data-text="true">"Well, when you tell yourself positive things about yourself, it helps your self-esteem. I bet losing 30 pounds has given you lots of good stuff to say."</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2jogf-0-0"><span data-text="true">I realize, she thought this was a compliment, but I thought it was incredibly sad because clearly she missed it.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="b52oj-0-0"><span data-text="true">I don't think I'm beautiful because of my body. I"m 49, still have sugar glider arms, carried two 9-pound babies and have the stretchmarks to prove it, have 50 more pounds to go to be in my happy range, and really don't like how my ankles look. Trust me. Beauty is not about my body.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="604b1-0-0"><span data-text="true">I don't think I am beautiful because of my face. I like the red hair; without it, I am significantly grey. I have wrinkles around my eyes. I've always wanted fuller lips, and when I smile, one eye looks smaller than the other. Plus, I have this long forehead. Nope. Beautiiful is not in my face. Although, I do like my looks. Really.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="7gnre-0-0"><span data-text="true">What this person didn't understand was my statement: </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="41il9-0-0"><span data-text="true">I've become the person I want to be. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8ui1d-0-0"><span data-text="true">This is what I mean. The person I want to be and have become--</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="36kh6-0-0"><span data-text="true">--answers the phone or goes to lunch or has coffee with someone who "wants to know how (I am)" but talks for 2 hours about themselves...and is okay that they trust me to listen even if they don't want to listen to me. (It is a very great priivliege when people trust you with their hearts.)</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="quvc-0-0"><span data-text="true">--has watched It's a Wonderful Life dozens of times...and still cries at the end.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="d7df2-0-0"><span data-text="true">--answers my phone in the middle of the night because I know sometimes the middle of the nighti s a hellish nightmare.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9dmlk-0-0"><span data-text="true">--likes steak...and a hotdog cookout equally, not because of the food but because of the people.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5pnig-0-0"><span data-text="true">--loves playing board games with my kids.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="7ei41-0-0"><span data-text="true">--loves how hard I've had to work to get thinner.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2r45q-0-0"><span data-text="true">--loves pushing myself beyond my comfort zone...even when it scares me a lot.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="d6ebn-0-0"><span data-text="true">--loves the adventuresome side of me that I'm giving room to grow.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5rhuf-0-0"><span data-text="true">--has wisdom only God could give, and that is pretty groovy.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="19vbr-0-0"><span data-text="true">--loves the intimacy I share with the Lord. It is breathtaking.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="chh0f-0-0"><span data-text="true">What I love about me is how much I enjoy life and how my faith has grown and peace is so pervasive even when circumstances are not my ideal. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9m7cm-0-0"><span data-text="true">Like i told my friend last night, I don't look in the mirror and tell myself good things so I can love who I am; I love who i am, so I tell myself good things.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="kl8q-0-0"><span data-text="true">Here is the reality. Not everyone is physically capable of having a swimsuit issue body. Not all of us are going to have model perfect faces, no matter what we do. And even if we did, all of that can be gone in heartbeat. A car wreck. Burn. Stroke. Heart diagnosis. Arthritis. Poof! The physical you is gone, and you are along for the ride, but who you choose to be, the way you choose to live your life, the way you invest in and value people...those things are the beautiful parts. And that is beauty you can choose. And, it is beautiful no matter what goes on around you. In fact, when all goes crazy around you, that kind of beauty only becomes more beautiful. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="o9hh-0-0"><span data-text="true">Stay beautiful!</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-59020223242948661012018-01-23T08:07:00.000-06:002018-01-23T08:07:03.961-06:00The Important Part of the Picture isn't where You've Been, It's that You are Here<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="bt0i7-0-0"><span data-text="true">Tuesday coming in, and I'm wondering where January has gone, and where the week is alrady going, and maybe you are wondering like I did for a long time--where did my life go and what did I do? Because sometimes looking back we look back to see what we hoped for, and when we don't see that, we see nothing at all. But that isn't true. You might not see what you hoped life would be, but you may have become more than what you ever hoped for.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="56vii-0-0"><span data-text="true">The crazy part of living a life that looks crazy is the persistence and courage that roots down deep in us and keeps us holding on when the storms fly crazy and the road ahead is beyond our ability to see. While we are not building the life we expected, we are building the ability to keep believing in and fighting for life.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="75hmk-0-0"><span data-text="true">We are learning not to be quitters, and the fact that you are still here says something in your picture is still what you hoped for because you hoped to still be part of the picture. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6nb9g-0-0"><span data-text="true">Is it the exact picture you had in your head? No. But I don't know anyone who actually gets that anyway. So today, instead of looking back and seeing how it doesn't match what you had in mind, can I give you some hope that you're being here says it can still look amazing?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="36c7k-0-0"><span data-text="true">See, the main part of the picture is your presence, so don't let the past tell you what it can't be. Let the fact that you are here give you hope of what it can still be.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a9jvf-0-0"><span data-text="true">Praying for you as you stand and hope...</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="1m6ka-0-0"><span data-text="true">Love and prayers,</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="chf03-0-0"><span data-text="true">Jerri</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-71193128868999777402018-01-22T10:49:00.001-06:002018-01-22T10:55:39.408-06:00If He Prayed for MeSaturday I wrote a blog and FB post about women praying for the men in their lives in a way that is focused on the men, not on what the women want from the men, and it has left me wondering. I wonder two things:<br />
1. What would I want the man who loves me to pray for me?<br />
2. What would I want the kids' dad to pray for me?<br />
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As many of you know, the kids' dad and I were in the process of divorce when he died seven years ago, but if he were alive, I would still be praying for him as their dad because the way a dad lives affects his kids in every aspect of their lives. I hope he would also pray for me as their mom, and if he did, I would hope he would pray something like this:<br />
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Father, help Jerri not to live in unforgiveness of any kind because that closes her heart to love, and I want her to love our kids deep and wide. <br />
Give her wisdom for her finances because in taking care of those, she also takes care of our kids. <br />
Give her wisdom for disciplining the kids, and help her to never discipline out of anger, frustration, or fatigue.<br />
Show her you love her in ways she knows and feels.<br />
Help her see our kids as you created them to be and bless that in them even when it is hard or stretches her or causes differences of opinion.<br />
Help her to listen to the kids and see things through their eyes, too.<br />
Help her to never compromise your Word but to live what she tells them she believes.<br />
Help her to see her value as a mom when she wonders if she makes a difference at all.<br />
Give her friends to encourage her on hard days.<br />
Bring the people she needs to meet practical needs like repairs.<br />
On hard days, help her to know when to just go do something fun and when to stay and fight it out.<br />
Help the two of us to talk and co-parent well.<br />
Give her physical strength to do all she needs to do and mental/emotional strength to face the intangible challenges.<br />
Give her a tenacious spirit for praying for our kids.<br />
Give her hope that things do turn out well for the kids even in the places they are struggling.<br />
If you bring another man into her life, I ask that he would love our kids like You love our kids, that he would be fair and wise, that he would bless who you created them to be, and I ask that he would be part of the parenting team, not a distraction or problem.<br />
Lord, bless Jerri to be joyful in you. Bless who she is, not just as a mom but as a person. Give her courage to be an example of faith to our kids and to become all you created her to be.<br />
I ask these things in Jesus' name, Amen.<br />
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Yeah...I think I would like for him to pray something like that...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-34250231464896395972018-01-21T11:17:00.003-06:002018-01-21T11:17:49.730-06:00Pondering Intimacy with God<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="97kde-0-0"><span data-text="true">This morning I am pondering intimacy with God. In the OT the priests went into the Holy of Holies at a certain time. It was like a seriously intense date with God. They planned for it and prepared for it. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4m6tm-0-0"><span data-text="true">In the NT, those who were intimate with Christ made the effort to be with Him, to know Him. Granted, there were those who were healed who didn't come near Him, such as the centurian's servant. But the ones who knew Him, spent time with Him. They talked with Him, listened, asked questions, prepared for time with Him. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ahjjd-0-0"><span data-text="true">One thing each of the intimate encounters with Jesus has in common is that the person actually made the effort to spend time in Jesus' presence, to connect, to hear, to be honest. </span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-15776170027376002262018-01-20T08:12:00.000-06:002018-01-20T08:12:20.461-06:00Husbands, Can You Help Us Out a Little Bit?<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="2je9a-0-0"><span data-text="true">Yesterday my way groovy friend </span></span><span class="_247o" contentstate="Record { "entityMap": [object Object], "blockMap": OrderedMap { "2je9a": Record { "key": "2je9a", "type": "unstyled", "text": "Yesterday my way groovy friend Heather Brizzi and I had an iron sharpening iron session over the phone. Specifically we were talking about husbands and marriage, spiritual warfare, and prayer. Really, it all went together. 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Specifically we were talking about husbands and marriage, spiritual warfare, and prayer. Really, it all went together. It has stuck in my head, and this morning the Lord and I talked more about wives praying for their husbands.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4iujj-0-0"><span data-text="true">If we are harcore real, the truth is most of us pray for others based on what we want out of it. We pray for people to be blessed or become or respond or act in a way that makes us feel good or makes things easy for us. Wives do that with their husbands. I know. I've been a wife. My female friends were wives. We've prayed together.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ajjuh-0-0"><span data-text="true">But this morning, the Lord is really impressing on me--</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="3ji0j-0-0"><span data-text="true"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">"If you did not look at your husband in relation to yourself and your prayers had nohting to do with you, what would you pray for your husband?"</span></strong> </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5ss2-0-0"><span data-text="true">That has me thinking, but we'll talk about that tomorrow or Monday becaus then the next question came to mind: </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="74n02-0-0"><span data-text="true">So, men, I am asking you to be hardcore real and help us ladies out. What do you want your wife to pray for when she lifts you up to the Lord?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5ob37-0-0"><span data-text="true">If you don't feel comfortable with a public answer, please PM me. I really want to know, and I know other ladies who want to know as well because some of us really have hearts to be great wives, so would you please help us out?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bav2f-0-0"><span data-text="true">Thanks,</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-72099913805762949692018-01-16T20:03:00.001-06:002018-01-16T20:03:03.508-06:00Genesis and Everything Else Begins the Same Way...with GodTwo weeks ago I posted about the 2010 and 2011 and how our life changed. I said a foundational piece for me was that God created a whole universe out of nothing. Everything that had never been...from nothing. <br />
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But there is something more fundamental than even that. You know, the story didn't start with creation. It started with God. <br />
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In the beginning, God.<br />
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Everything starts with God. <br />
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I've been thinking about this because people want shortcuts, and there are no shortcuts, but people try them. They try the book studies and the conferences and the whatever classes because those are supposed to be life-changing events.<br />
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As someone who attended book studies and classes and retreats, I can tell you none of them changed my life. Because none of them changed me.<br />
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What changed me is far simpler than that.<br />
1 I read my Bible every day.<br />
2. I prayed a lot.<br />
3. And I started agreeing with the Bible, not with what I wanted to hear or how I wanted life to be.<br />
4. I admitted when I sinned by not acting in accordance with God's ways.<br />
5. I did the hard things that obedience requires instead of taking the comfortable road with its explanations and excuses.<br />
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Simply put. I chose God.<br />
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I stopped looking for books that helped me feel better about myself and looked to the God who wanted me to have the best version of myself.<br />
I stopped looking to retreats to have some amazing encounter and focused on creating time in my every day for intimacy.<br />
I stopped looking for spiritual highs and decided I would take whatever truth did, even when it hurt, as long as it meant I got Him.<br />
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And He has been faithful to respond. <br />
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In Jeremiah 29, God says, "You will find me when you seek me with your whole heart." <br />
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I wanted everything He is so I made Him my discipline.<br />
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If I had to choose between sleep or prayer, I tried to always get up and pray. <br />
If I had to choose between TV or reading my Bible, I read my Bible.<br />
If I had to choose between my ego and becoming like Him, I choked down more humble pie.<br />
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Everything starts with God.<br />
Everything I want to be.<br />
Everything I want for my life.<br />
Everything I want for my kids.<br />
Everything starts with God.<br />
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Want to change your life?<br />
Start at the beginning.<br />
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In the beginning...God.<br />
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Jerri L. Kelley<br />
<a href="http://www.jerrikelley.com/">www.jerrikelley.com</a>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-24994134352916132182018-01-15T10:20:00.000-06:002018-01-15T10:20:18.755-06:00Prayer for Those of You in the Hard Places<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="74aop-0-0"><span data-text="true">Father God,</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="1e22k-0-0"><span data-text="true">I lift up the folks who read (and don't read) my posts on FB and my blog, and I ask you to speak to them today. If not through these words, somehow. Show them the answers to the issues they face, and, Lord, nag them if you have to, especially if they are the problem that is preventing the answer. Give them wisdom and grant them forbearance to way up under the weight of the issue until you bring it to solution. I pray that in the waiting, you would show them your character, not as a hateful God who is waiting to squish them like a bug if they step or breathe wrong, but as a God who has invested His very breath into them, because that is what you really have done. Given us your breath and given us your life so we could breathe again when we were dead in our own mess and waste. Help them to see the God I know, the God who loves deeply and desires honest relationship with mutual love and respect, with hearts to serve each other. Show them the path, not just to their answer, but the path to you because that is not something shown to us very often, and when it is, it is usually wrapped in ritual and checkmarks, not radical passion and committed love. Thank you, Lord, for every person you have brought within my writing world and personal one. Thank you that you have a plan for every single one of them, and sometimes that plan is hard to walk or impossible to understand because this world is not for sissies, but, Lord, I pray that in the hard and impossible to understand, they would understand this--you are with them.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ei2ja-0-0"><span data-text="true">I love you, Father. Help me love you more.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="a2839-0-0"><span data-text="true">Help my lack of faith, Lord.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-65844613163440146872018-01-14T10:49:00.003-06:002018-01-14T10:49:44.559-06:00The Grief Others Don't See, God Sees and Steps Right Into<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="7g343-0-0"><span data-text="true">This morning as I was praying I prayed for folks on FB, and I had this urge to get on FB and tell a woman it's okay to grieve your baby, even if no one else understands. God understands your heart grief that no one can relate to or even knows about. I didn't, though, because, frankly, it kind of sounded weird...and really personal, and how would I word that anyway?</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="38plo-0-0"><span data-text="true">I checked my email, and there was an email from a very dear friend who has no children and is not married, but her elderly dog she has had since a puppy is very sick and may not make it through the day. Her heart is breaking, and she metnioned our conversation this week and said, "Thank you for reminding me God loves me even when my heart is breaking." </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bpgu-0-0"><span data-text="true">How much does He love her? How much is He concerned about her pain? So much so that He spoke comfort to me to offer her. He WANTS her to know He feels her heart. He WANTS her to know her grief is His concern. He WANTS her to know even when some people see "only a dog", He sees her life companion. THAT is the fulness of His love for her.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="90l64-0-0"><span data-text="true">God is so many things, but the greatest thing He is...is definitely love.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-18164677095453736722018-01-04T22:16:00.002-06:002018-01-04T22:16:57.586-06:00When People Hurt More than You have the Power to Help...You Pray<div data-contents="true">
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<span data-offset-key="forhi-0-0"><span data-text="true">In my other post about my trip through government bureacracy the last week and especially today, I talked about the wounded souls I saw, and the question was posed, "What does God want you to do with it?" Well, put it in perspective for one. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ch83b-0-0"><span data-text="true">I also took my truck in for some major repair work. It was supposed to go in yesterday, but it didn't because one of the owners of Christian Brothers passed into the hands of Jesus Monday, and yesterday was Annette's memorial. It was hard walking into CB's today knowing I would hear her laughter or see her smile or feel her hugs. Right now, I'm tearing up again. And it is hard knowing what her husband is facing and just how...empty a kitchen chair can be or the other side of the couch or the other seat in the car. And my heart would do anything to make that better.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="ftenc-0-0"><span data-text="true">While I was rolling through the emotions and frustrations of the day, I was also getting messages from folks neededing prayer, and I am always honored and privileged when people pour out their hearts for me to take before the Lord, and maybe today I am really tender because of Annette, but so many people are facing granite hard things, and I can do nothing pratical to fix it. Nothing.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="e9ies-0-0"><span data-text="true">All I can do is carry these hearts and lives and needs into the throne room and lay them before the Lord and ask for answers to the specific needs and ask for help for them, not just material help but emotional help so they can find peace and mental calm so they make decisions well. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="3kev1-0-0"><span data-text="true">You know, when you are left making decisions that it is shocking to make in the first place and add mental and emotional exhaustion to the mix, one of three things will happen. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8l6rl-0-0"><span data-text="true">1. They'll do something human to fix it, which is bad.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="c8k6b-0-0"><span data-text="true">2. God will step in and meet them where they are, and they will know how to lean into Him.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6pa6h-0-0"><span data-text="true">3. They will crater. Maybe not suicide but in ways that destroy marriages, relationships, and hope.</span></span></div>
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Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-697753428956439076.post-60837508121097270652018-01-04T20:53:00.002-06:002018-01-04T20:53:13.532-06:00A View of Hard Normal<div data-block="true" data-editor="brs43" data-offset-key="88qf1-0-0">
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<span data-offset-key="88qf1-0-0"><span data-text="true">You know, I never know whether to post on FB or what to post on FB because most of the time I honestly think everyone is busy with life and why would y'all care about the mundaneness of mine. Sometimes I know God is pushing me to say a specific thing. Sometimes I'm lonely and want to tell someone, so I tell the collective "y'all". LOL Today, I feel like someone needs to know about my last two days. </span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fqgqe-0-0"><span data-text="true">Long story short, due to my technical income, applications for my son's insurance have been refused pending a forced application to CHP. (No, i am not going to explain it, and I don't want comments/suggestions/advice/whatever. Really. I am not in a good place on this, and i may very well torch anyone who does that. Being real.) So I have spent the last week working through the bureaucracy of that. Yesterday's 3 phone call experience was horrible. I kept getting back to the same person who lectured me about how she told me what to do and how to do it and clearly I don't know how to follow directions, and I informed her I am an incredibly intelligent woman and if I can't make this work, maybe she is lousy at giving directions and...in the end, I used some wholly unpastoral and decidedly not-Chris-Christian language. And I have to tell you, I had a hard cry and told the Lord honestly, I can't do this again. I have dealt with the bad effects of the insurance takeover for the last four years, and I can't do it again. I just don't have it in me to fight that battle again. I'll cancel all our insurance and deal with a fee, but I'm tired. Too tired to care. (Anyone relate?)</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5urrc-0-0"><span data-text="true">Today I made another phone call about this insurance purgatory, and thank God, I reached a different person who actually listened, took time to review my file, and said the reason things weren't working is because the person who did the interview (i.e., that lovely woman I called an ugly name before I hung up on her) had my file locked down so i couldn't access it to upload the documents they needed. I really had done everything right, and there was no way it was going to work. So she fixed it and gave me a few options for resolution which included a trip over to the local office, which I did.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="don2p-0-0"><span data-text="true">That was...uh...I had a new view of life. A view from the perspective of people who find themselves in situations they could never imagine, have made every right decision to avoid, people who find themselves without jobs, without food, in need of government assistance to feed their kids. And I stood right in the middle of that large room waiting in line for my turn, and I just kept thinking, "This is not happening. This is not happening. How in the world...?" And I wondered how many other people there had the very same thought. Then nexst thing I knew, I realized I was praying for them, for each of them, not just for God to meet their physical needs but for Him to heal broken spirits that were asking the same question I was, who felt the same shock I did, who needed to know they hadn't failed but were just taking a hard road.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="cesbj-0-0"><span data-text="true">I turned in the paperwork, and the young lady was lovely, and I told her I don't want CHP. I don't need CHP, and she looked at my paperwork and understood why I was there and said I should know within a week and depending on the government's disinterested answer, maybe I can go back to normal life.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5ck60-0-0"><span data-text="true">I told the kids we were finished and left. The whole thing took less than 20 minutes, but I keep thinking about how much I want him denied so I can "go back to normal life", and i am thinking about the people who were there when I got there and there when I left and are dealing with the fact that for reasons out of their control for now, this is normal life.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2aovc-0-0"><span data-text="true">My heart is so sad for them.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="dc1c5-0-0"><span data-text="true">We live in a hard, hard world, y'all. A world with people not just hurting for money but people with hurting in their spirit because some things in life crush you that way.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fiuei-0-0"><span data-text="true">Tonight, I'm doing all I know to do. I"m praying.</span></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fllh2-0-0"><span data-text="true">Always,</span></span></div>
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