For a few very hard years this word was my mantra.
The word means
-undismayed; not discouraged; not forced to abandon purpose or effort
-undiminished in courage or valor; not giving way to fear
But the truth is, I was often dismayed by everything that had taken place, and I did battle discouragement. I battled fear and doubts. I hurt and was angry, and sometimes "undaunted" sounded more like a mockery than a mantra, and I was determined to be real about all of it in these posts, thus the name, Undaunted Reality. More than that, though, I was determined to live undaunted, not because I'm so great or strong, but because my God is, and no matter what this world looks like, He is the only reality that matters.
I pray I live the reality of Him beautifully undaunted.

Monday, April 6, 2015

I Can't Do This

I love my life. I love the incredibly cool stuff has opened the doors to let me do. It looks totally scattered, but in my mind, it all fits and works in such an amazing orchestral way. Part of celebrating resurrection over the weekend was hang and chat time with the Lord God, and He has some really cool ideas...None of which I know how to make happen. I've spent my "down time" today sorting through, resorting, trying this other idea. Nothing was working. All the time I'm working on this, I'm thinking, "God, I don't know how to do this," but I'm more than a conqueror, right? So who am I to confess an inability to do something? But then it hit me. The truth. So I said, "God, I can't do this. Which means it is the perfect place for you to show up and do something above and beyond what I can dream or imagine. THIS is the very place I've been praying for us to reach. We're here. Tell me my part so you can do your part."

No. I still don't have answers, except to tell some of you who are driving yourself crazy refusing to confess "lack" or "speak curses" confess your NEED. Needing God isn't lack. Needing God and knowing He'll accomplish what He said is FAITH. "Lack" is about your attitude which leads to your inaction. Faith is about your attitude that allows HIM to direct you so He can open the door for HIM to act.

Choosing to live the choice to trust His ability despite my inability at a time.

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