For a few very hard years this word was my mantra.
The word means
-undismayed; not discouraged; not forced to abandon purpose or effort
-undiminished in courage or valor; not giving way to fear
But the truth is, I was often dismayed by everything that had taken place, and I did battle discouragement. I battled fear and doubts. I hurt and was angry, and sometimes "undaunted" sounded more like a mockery than a mantra, and I was determined to be real about all of it in these posts, thus the name, Undaunted Reality. More than that, though, I was determined to live undaunted, not because I'm so great or strong, but because my God is, and no matter what this world looks like, He is the only reality that matters.
I pray I live the reality of Him beautifully undaunted.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Lent Day 2--From my Journal

I am quite lost in this ocean of love God has dropped me in, and if it weren't for the three confirmations He gave me, I would be quite sure I was mistaken.

I feel as though I have walked into the wonderland I always dreamed of but people said didn't exist.

Lord, show me how high and wide and deep and long Your love for me is.

Reveal or remove anything in my way of thinking that keeps me from knowing Your love to the fullness You desire for me to know. Show me thought habits that keep me from thinking and believing the depths of vastness of Your love for me.

Show me how to think about myself the way You do because Your thoughts are love-driven. Even Your thoughts of discipline toward me are love-driven.

Show me the thoughts I have about myself that prevent me from seeing myself through Your eyes.

Lord, show me anything in my thoughts or beliefs about You that do not line up with Your love for me.

And, Lord, I already feel it trying to come out and take control. I feel myself making Lent and these prayers and thoughts into a daily plan. The thoughts have already come into my brain that I need to do "this plan" every day. I honestly believe if I enjoy You everyday my heart will respond to You and I will pray because it is my response to You not because I'm trying to illicit a response from You.

Dear God, I want this to be all about being with You and what comes from being with You. Help me. Help me to die to my plans and my patterns. My "to do" patterns are prisons. You don't enjoy me in prison, so I give You the Jerri's "ooo.....this is good" plan. Please give me the "Jerri, I am God" plan.

If it's not of you, I don't want it, and when it comes to You, I want everything.

Lord, thank You that I can confess my flesh habits to You and You never condemn me. Thank You that You are my husband and my best friend and You are wholly on my side. Thank You that You desrie to see me be the best of myself not just for Your glory but because You enjoy my peace of mind and heart.

I love You because You loved me first. I pray my love for You would become deeper as I understand the depth of Your love for me.

1 comment:

  1. I want that, too! I am such a "do-er" that sometimes I get caught up in the activity rather than the heart-place I need to be.