For a few very hard years this word was my mantra.
The word means
-undismayed; not discouraged; not forced to abandon purpose or effort
-undiminished in courage or valor; not giving way to fear
But the truth is, I was often dismayed by everything that had taken place, and I did battle discouragement. I battled fear and doubts. I hurt and was angry, and sometimes "undaunted" sounded more like a mockery than a mantra, and I was determined to be real about all of it in these posts, thus the name, Undaunted Reality. More than that, though, I was determined to live undaunted, not because I'm so great or strong, but because my God is, and no matter what this world looks like, He is the only reality that matters.
I pray I live the reality of Him beautifully undaunted.

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Self-Talk--When the Day Starts Rough, Time to Start It Over

I have had one hour sleep. My sinuses are full and throbbing. My head is full and throbbing. Tried to talk to a friend about the throbbing head. That went totally wrong and made things worse, and the enemy of my peace is saying, "You know what she is thinking. She is thinking you are too blunt and ugly and rude and ungrateful and just flat stupid, and (write your own list of you-are-such-a-failure here). That's the problem. You really are unlovable. No one wants you." 

And the brain that used to say, "You're right," and go crawl back into bed or wander around bursting into tears over anything and nothing has put its hand up and said, "Um. No."

Having to do some serious self-talk this morning.

This whole avalanche started with stupid. "The act was stupid. Not you. Don't do that again."

I am not stupid.
I don't have to choose stupid.
Freedom to choose wisely.
Got it.

And there it is. Mid-morning and the day is starting over.
 Nothing stupid.
Nothing suffocating.
And in the last 4 minutes I haven't failed at anything.

It's the beginning of a great day.

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